I just had an epiphany (I think). A moment which I almost missed while listening to something else. I realised that what I fear most at this moment in time, what keeps me awake and makes my heart pound eg losing everything material, my house etc is actually not the life ending thing I imagine. I have to document this quickly as the idea is deserting me quickly, how bad can it be? Will I be less loved? No. Will I be cast out with nothing? I doubt it. Will I feel humbled? Probably but is that bad? Will I find peace? Definitely. I felt it deeply just a minute or two ago.